I wonder what this next year will hold – 2013. It seems impossible. Weren’t we just waiting for the end of the world to come at the strike of midnight 2000? Some people still have cans of corn in their basement.
My son will be thirteen this January.
I sit and wonder where all the time has gone, and then I look to the future and I wonder some more.
The cure for wonder is living in the present, being right here in this very moment, but it’s hard work to live like there is no other time except today.
I look back over this last year and it’s filled with moments of wonder, too many to count. Everything was in question. Work, our home, our future in this town.
I say I’ve stopped trying to figure things out, that I’m done playing God, but the next moment I wonder what in the world is going on and I try to figure it out again.
The present, right here, right now, that’s where I need to live, because wonder is just that – wonder. I won’t get any answers with it. It won’t make my future brighter or my past more tangible. It will just leave me discontent and discontentment is the biggest joy thief I’ve ever met.
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I’m joining Lisa-Jo Baker in Five Minute Friday.
She gave us a topic and we had five minutes to write – no planning and no editing. Sorry, you’re the ones who must read the gibberish of my five minute brain dump.
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